Week 3-4

A week an a half with nothing written. Go me.

Okay but I’m not going to beat myself up, that’s some high strung Virgo nonsense and even though I’m a Virgo I’m not gonna do it.

It’s been a really strange month so far. I’ve been sick on and off (turns out it was a stomach ulcer likely caused by stress) I was staying in someone else’s house for two weeks, and I didn’t have any kind of planner until last Friday (I couldn’t get any of my thoughts organized.)

The spending ban hast started off well. I’m still spending too much on things I definitely don’t need. But I will not give up on myself. If nothing else this month has helped me realize some of my triggers and deeper problems. I go out to eat and to coffee shops as a way to escape whatever is going on at home. I like to think I’m good at handling conflict, but I turned out I’m only good at helping other people handle their conflicts. My conflict? Not so much. I can already tell that if I do this properly then I’m going to have to deal with things that I don’t want to and confront some things that have been nicely suppressed for a while now. And since I have been staying in more, instead of dealing with my family stuff I just watch Netflix. I have wasted so much time in the last week and a half just staring at a screen. There is nothing intentional about that. I think for at least the next couple of weeks I’m going to do a Netflix/streaming/tv detox. No watching shows for 2 weeks starting today, June 24. I can watch movies because those aren’t really binge-able and I don’t get lost in it and waste hours.

I need to set up a plan for this week. The plan is: No tv shows. No spending. Finally finish decluttering. Get rid of the boxes of stuff. Journal daily so I can write more cohesive posts. Schedule and oils class.

It’s really short this week but this is all I got. And anything worth doing is worth doing poorly so this is what it is.