I have been sick all week. I saved money in a way I didn’t want to since I didn’t eat, while not making as much money as I need because I didn’t work. and in writing that sentence I realize that I’m focusing on money in the wrong way. I know this is all about a spending ban but I’m focusing too much on what I can’t spend and what I need to earn. What I’m going to do is shift to thinking about saving and what I truly value and wish to spend my money on. In a capitalist society like America we truly vote with our dollars and I haven’t been making an informed vote in that regard. I always try educate myself about candidates and elections but I don’t bother to research the companies I’m supporting. From now on I’m going to research before I buy anything. The buying process up to this point was me trying to be more mindful about what I’m spending and if I truly wanted the thing and if it would add value to my life, now I’ll add this next step.
This project is also supposed to be about learning to live a more intentional and healthy life, and I haven’t written about or focused on that at all. my past week has been a mixed bag when it comes to intentions. I have been waking up earlier and i have a sort of routine because I’m dog sitting for a friend and I have to do certain things for the dogs in the morning before I go to work. I’ve also been making breakfast and trying to have some time to relax before work. I’ve even been watching a show while I do all of this in the morning. My mom often has the TV on in the background, but I always viewed that as noise, because sometimes she’s said that she just wants the noise, but at times I’ve hated it because it was mindless. Even before I started trying to be mindful, I was bothered by the fact that she wasn’t paying attention to what she was consuming, she would just let it run and was so uncomfortable with silence. Having a show on in the morning was a very small thing that I was judging myself for because i didn’t want to be mindless about it. I had to have a conversation with myself about why it was okay to enjoy it; I was selecting a show to watch, not just turning on whatever was on. I wasn’t letting it go for hours and hours, I watch one or two episodes and then move on. I also have to think about why I judge people so much. I judged my mom for having background noise. I judged one of my brothers so much for years that we have a strained relationship now, and what I was judging him over had absolutely nothing to do with me, a few days ago we talked about it and had a better conversation than we have in years, possibly ever. i have a lot of work to do to repair that relationship and others simply because I’ve been so judgmental in the past.
I like to have intentions instead of goals, mostly because calling it that makes me thing about them differently and motivates me to do it. my weekly intentions are different than my to do list because they’re more about bigger changes I’m trying to make rather than tasks I have to complete
Intentions for this week
- Read a book (my goal is to read 3 per month this year)
- be generous
- Do something creative
- Pray and read the Bible daily
- Be kind
- complain less
To Do
- Fill out FAFSA by 6/17
- Finish declutter by 6/17
- Post all items for sale by 6/20
Essentially Intentional 